Greetings, Boss Witches! And I hope you all had a wonderful festive season, whether you were celebrating Yule, Hanukkah, Christmas, Saturnalia…or anything else.
2019 for me was a buster. It was a hard no from me. I had a f*cker of a time with my health starting last January, and I’m just now this month getting treatment for that (although I must say that I am so grateful to the NHS for the services they provide because I know that in many countries a surgery like this could bankrupt me). My mental health was up and down, mostly down, due to said medical clusterf*ckery, and I went back onto anxiety meds, onto some new ones a month later, changed again 10 days after that and have since gone up in the dosage twice. I am the first to say that if you want to take meds, f*cking do it. If you don’t believe in taking meds, that’s fine, too – just let everyone else make up their own minds, yeah?
Anyway. In the midst of all that health drama, I was also contending with trying to get my PhD finished (spoiler alert: I didn’t, and that’s okay, too). I’ll soon be putting in for my second thesis extension which hurts my Virgoan heart, but that’s one of the lessons I learned in 2019: health comes first, and the world is not actually going to end if you take an extra year to finish your thesis. Meanwhile, I had exciting opportunities for work stuff which then went away, making for another tough transition.
I know, this all sounds a bit dreary. Don’t worry – we’re getting to the good stuff.
In the midst of all of this doom and gloom, I realised that something was missing from my life, despite the fact that every day’s to-do list was brimming and I was constantly feeling overwhelmed. Basically, I had lost my spirit. I’d let this strong, witchy, spiritual part of myself drown underneath all of the bullsh*t that had consumed my life. And here I was, 33 years old and (relatively) healthy, with a loving relationship and bright things on the horizon, and yet I could not pull myself out of the slump.
That’s when I started this blog, and I committed myself back to getting in touch with my spirit and, well, Spirit. And since that fateful day, just over 4 months ago, I have been reinvigorated with hope, with purpose, with that deeper connection that I was lacking. I meditate twice a day, usually. I am mindful about the way I speak to myself and others. I practise my spellwork and my Tarot just about daily. And, most importantly, I reconnected with that community from whom I’d cut myself off the last few years (without meaning to). I re-learned what self-care really means. I appreciated the support I get from my family and my partner, and her family. I’ve re-adjusted to life as it is, and not as I wanted it to be, because opening our eyes can be the first step to building that dream life.
So really, I just wanted to say a huge thank you for being part of OBW. For coming here and reading my (recently intermittent) blog posts; for following me on Instagram, for reaching out with kind words, for including me in your community, for inviting me to your book clubs and for asking me questions and booking sessions with me. All of those things bring my heart fullness and warmth, and help to bring me up when I get a bit fearful about the next couple of months and post-surgery.
2020 is going to be the year for us. Next week the blog is back 3 times per week, Mondays, Wednesday and Fridays, and the newsletter will be out on Thursdays. Don’t forget to sign up to that below! You can also follow this blog so that you get it straight to your inbox. The newsletter is getting a bit more pimped out this year, and there will be weekly Tarot readings just for you gorgeous subscribers, as well as some giveaways coming up.
This is year of integrity for me – integrity to myself, and integrity to you.
In the meantime, if you’d like to book an online Tarot reading or personal spell/cleansing work, please contact me. I’d be super happy to help, and I have some availability up until the 20th January. After that I will re-open for bookings once I’m able to manage them.